Content with a Capital "C"

I'm still alive - promise!  Wow, I've been a terribly unfaithful blogger lately!  Some days I feel like I'm too busy living life to take a break and write about it, ya know?

I have big news.  To say it, it doesn't sound nearly as overwhelmingly joyful as it feels.....just two little words.  But there's no other way to put it:  I'm content.

Did you hear me?  I'm CONTENT.

This is a revolutionary change for me.  I can't remember a time in my life that I wasn't striving for the next thing that life would bring.  I was in high school, I was looking forward to college.  I was single, I was looking forward to finding "him".  I found "him", and I was looking forward to being married.  I was married, and I was looking forward to having children.  I was in college, and I was looking forward to working.  I was working, and I was looking forward to quitting and being a mom.  I was a mom, and I was looking forward to....well, the kids' bedtime!

Do you know what I mean?  Always pressing and pushing and wishing I was somewhere I wasn't.

But now?  I'm here.  I'm happy.  I'm full.

I'm sharing my life with my favorite person in the world.
My life is filled with the joyful chaos of my happy and healthy children.
I have friends I love.
I have this Jesus of mine who holds my hand and comforts me...encourages me everywhere I go.
I have work to do that feels like a little bit of something for *me*....but that I can do without taking away from the parts of my life that belong to my family.

I'm loving my life, and I just can't tell you how good that feels....way down deep in my soul.

Ironically, the best change in my life  - the thing that's finally brought me to this miraculous place of contentment is something I've fought against my entire life:  the giving up of control.

Hello world, my name is Daiquiri and I'm a control freak. (this is not news to the people who know me best)

Also in the "ironic" column, is the fact that the thing that brought me to the place where I had no choice but to loosen my iron grip on control is something I never dreamed I'd do.  May it never be said that God doesn't have a sense of humor!

In short, it's my business that's changed my life so dramatically.

You know how it's said that there's never an atheist in a foxhole?  It makes sense.  If you're hiding in a hole in the ground while bullets whiz by your head....if you have no where to turn and no control over what's about to happen to you?  Most people in that extreme situation with call out to God for help, even if they've denied His existence their entire lives.

Well, with this business, I find myself waking up every single morning in my own personal foxhole!

I wake with this big dream before me....and the realization that I am utterly without the ability to make my dream reality.  So I turn to Him, offer my dream up into His hands, and say something like "If this isn't what you have for me, then change my heart's dream.  If it is, then you're gonna have to guide me because I don't know what the hell I'm doing!"

I give control of my day to Him....and then spend my time trying my best to listen and to find the courage to move when He tells me to move.

At first it was terrifying, but now?  Well now, I never want that control back again!  Truly amazing things happen when the Spirit is given free reign in a person's short, the path is made clear for miracles to happen!

Is everything in my life perfect?  No way.  There are lots of things in my life that I'd change right now if I could do it with a snap of my fingers.  But I can't.  And the One who can?  Well, He's not snapping those fingers....and I trust Him.  I am precisely where He wants me, and so I will rest.

That, my friends, is an amazing feeling.

So that's what's been up with me :-)

That, and a whole bunch of practical stuff like:
1.  We FINALLY closed on that house we flipped!  YIPPEE!! (that reminds me, I still have lots of before and after shots to get up on that blog)

2.  Spring Break with the kids was awesome - the perfect combo of lounging in jammies all day and watching cartoons....and running all over town to explore the Discovery Center, Nature Center, parks, and watch movies.  Our kids are at such great ages right now!

3.  My sister and her family are MOVING.  To CALIFORNIA.  Personally, I'm crushed.  We'll miss them like crazy, and I'm sorta grumpy with them for making my girls cry every night because they're already missing their cousins.  But for them?  I'm really excited for them and proud of them for chasing their life long dreams.  They have tons of courage, and I hope they find exactly what they're after.  And hey, now we have a good excuse to visit Lego Land sooner rather than later ;-)

4.  One of my best friends in the whole world has written a book!  She has a gorgeous new website, and I'm so happy for her!

5.  Clara's hands are only one knuckle away from being the same size as mine.  This is totally freaking me out.

6.  I got an iPhone, and I simply don't know how I ever lived without it!

7.  My first full month of business was December - I sold a little product that month and was pretty excited about it.  But now?  My little organization has 17 people in it, and we cover 6 states.  Now I'm REALLY excited about it!

8.  I'm headed to, of all places, Bozeman, Montana this weekend for my first corporate event.  I'm not sure I'll sleep at all between now and Friday because I'm so stinkin' excited!  I LOVE this job!

9.  Thomas is talking like crazy, and I am so enjoying getting to know what's going on in his little head.  By the way, he is super smart!  Who knew?!

10.  Clara is finally reading like a champ...took lots of slamming doors and foot stomping to finally get here, but we're here.  Praise.  The.  Lord.

11.  My sweet little Samantha is registered for kindergarten this coming fall.  Oh my.  Bloggy friends....count on being a shoulder for me while I mourn her leaving me every morning.

12.  Thomas is signed up for preschool.  That means I'll have 5 hours each week all to myself.  After a solid 10 years of happily having someone under-foot at all times.  Can't really let myself think about that right now.

13.  Ben is signed up to play soccer starting in a couple of weeks.  He's my "I hate change" kiddo, so I'm very proud of him for trying something new.

And finally, if you can believe it, the reason I decided to sit and write tonight (besides the fact that Luke is out of town right now and I'm missing the adult conversation)....I made a fun and super easy treat for the kids tonight.  It was so yummy that it earned me a "you're my favorite person in the whole wide world, mommy" from Sammy :-)

To make:
- Melt chocolate chips in the micro at about 30% power, stirring every 30 seconds until smooth (Nestle chips are the best)
- skewer a large marshmallow with a straight pretzel, and dip in chocolate.  place on waxed paper to cool.
-  with remaining chocolate: mix coconut and crushed graham crackers.  drop onto waxed paper to cool.  
(hint: don't crush crackers to fine - the small chunks make for a nice crunch)

Finally, get your camera ready to capture the smiles that are sure to follow :-)

elandreth  – (4/07/2011 06:30:00 AM)  

I love reading about your life too. Makes me long for the "good ole days" when my three were small. Please, be sure you are saving these blogs somewhere else than on the blog. You are writing your life story lady and some day, when old and gray like me, you will re-read and cherish every memory. I love your treat too.

elandreth  – (4/07/2011 06:32:00 AM)  

Shucks, I tried to copy your recipe and photo but that function is disabled. I waned to pass it on to my kids.

Anonymous –   – (4/08/2011 08:15:00 AM)  

California!?!?! When is this happening?
I'm SO HAPPY for you! I look forward to being content as well =)
Have a great day!

coolerNights  – (5/19/2011 12:51:00 AM)  

This is good post.Such a nice information you provide us about home and family.
Thank you for sharing with us.

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