Hello Friday, I Love You

Whew, it's Friday! This has felt like a marathon week for me. I just adore Fridays. I love going to bed on Thursday nights with the thought "ooo, tomorrow is Friday!". I love getting up in the morning...a sweet kiss on my shoulder and the words "happy Friday" whispered by the love of my life. It's family pizza and movie night tonight - a tradition we've remained faithful to since the birth of our "baby", now 2 1/2 years old.


I'm feeling overwhelmed in a good way today - a welcome change to the normal overwhelmed I feel, which involves too much housework, not enough time with my Luke or by myself, and unsettled kids who seem to bicker day and night. Hmmm, could it be that the kids are unsettled because their mama is both overwhelmed and underwhelmed in her ability to cope with grace? Their days are so much more peaceful and fun when we start with a quiet snuggle, a handful of kisses, and a chat about how great the day is going to be.

I KNOW these things...why don't I just DO it more often?

Today I'm surrounded by more laundry and dirty dishes than I've had in a very very long time. I can hardly stay away from the computer...I got wrapped up in a fun project, and just try to get me to stop! And yet, with all this mess...joy.

Are you tired of hearing me go on and on about God yet? I feel like it's all I post about lately. It's just that these past few months have been some of my most horrifying and painful. And now, I'm coming out the other side. The view past those few months of pain? It's amazing.

It could be amazing because I'm simply not squirming under immediate and intense pain like I've been doing. Sort of like when you have the flu...you know how you feel BEYOND healthy and strong and energetic those first few days once it's passed?

But no. It's more that just the relief from suffering. I know this because underneath this joy, there's still missing Grandma. There's still sadness. There's still grieving for my friend and her family. There's still...the crud.

Through all of this, God has been incredible. I say that with a new and less superficial voice. I'm ashamed to say that I've feared. I've doubted. I've wondered if God was good or even real at all. I can't say that I regret those terrifying feelings though. It was those feelings that brought me to my knees before God...brought me to the very end of myself and my faith.

I ran out of faith.
I ran out of understanding.
I ran out of trust for my Jesus.

Not good.

But faith, understanding, and trust that can be depleted? That's stuff straight from ME. I needed the stuff that God has to offer. It turns out that he delivers the goods only after I'm all done with doing things my way and on my terms and with what I can provide.

I rely on Him now more than I ever did. And do you know what? This faith and trust and understanding that is whispered into my soul fresh each morning? It's like sitting down to a grand and rich feast after eating nothing but saltine crackers my entire life. It's like I'm actually nourished for the first time.

Pain is no fun, but I can say with all my heart...God brings good from it. God works in the furnace of our pain - he refined me just a bit (I say just a bit because I'm more aware now than ever of how far I have left to grow).

So here I am, on this beautiful and very messy Friday...full of joy and peace and an overwhelming excitement for what's to come. I'm cleaning my home, dancing in the kitchen with my little ones, and setting puzzles while smelling their head and brushing my fingers along their soft warm cheeks.

Oh, and I'm also joyful today because of the BEST letter from a friend yesterday. She's been searching for God, and I've been praying for her. I learned quickly that my speaking did more harm than good, so I decided to just zip it and pray instead. This friend...so struggling with "christianity" that can be so ugly with it's politics and hate and judgement..."christianity" that hurt her deeply. Well, her search was in earnest. I know this because God revealed himself to her in an irresistible way (you know what God says about what happens when you truly search for him...).

And now...NOW...she got beyond that "christianity" and she got Christ.

She's being baptized on Valentine's Day - she says the timing is a perfect picture of the love she's been consumed with.

Oh, friends. This Jesus. He is...he is...oh, he just IS. There are no WORDS right now to express it!

Okay, I have to stop. The peace of this morning doesn't seem to have stuck with the kids, and they're hollering again ;-) Have a great weekend, everyone!


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A Request


Dear Lord Jesus,


I've read it at least 100 times before, but today your Word on loving my neighbor as myself really jumped up and grabbed me. In fact "The entire law is summed up in a single command: 'Love your neighbor as yourself.'" (Galatians 5:14)?!

It suddenly dawned on me just what that verse says: love your neighbor. More specifically, I realized what it DOESN'T say. It doesn't say "try to love your neighbor", or "act like you love your neighbor", or even "make your neighbor feel loved".

Love them. Whether my neighbor knows it or not, I am to actually feel love for them.

Lord, I don't know how to love everyone like you want me to love them! In fact, the more I try, the more I realize just how impossible it is for this selfish heart of mine.

I'm trying not to blame my poor fellow human beings for being infinitely un-lovable (in fact, some are downright un-likable...you know who I'm talking about). I'm a blamer though, it's what I do. I have a little bit of Adam in me after all "the woman gave me the fruit to eat". See? More blaming. Talk about un-lovable...look in the mirror, Daiquiri!

So this brings me to my request. Whatever it takes to truly love other people the way you want me to...I don't have it. Would you please help me out? You can heal the sick and wounded. You can mend broken hearts. You can provide what seems impossible. You can create life by your very thought. Would you mind one more miracle? Take this heart of mine and help it to be a heart that pleases and honors you. And one more small request: be gentle, please!

Your Adoring Girl,
Daiquiri

PS. This one verse has shown me just how thoroughly impossible it is for me to fulfill the "entire law" - thank you so much for your amazing grace that saves even this ugly heart of mine!

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The "S" Word


Oh my, friends. God has been busy at work on this little heart of mine lately! It's been a scary, painful, tear-filled journey over the past couple of months. But I'm left with a profoundly new view of this incredible Lord of my life! I have so much to share!

Instead of starting at the beginning though, I'm dying to share what He taught me just this morning. Don't you LOVE that still small voice of God? Whenever I hear it whisper it's way into my thoughts, I just know my life is about to be changed forever!

I go to a Wednesday morning Bible study each week. Our teacher is a woman named Kay, and she is a gift straight from Heaven into my life. From the moment she begins to speak, I'm carried away by her love for Jesus and the Word. Before I know it, almost 2 hours has passed, and I'm a changed woman.


This session, we're doing a "Marriage Without Regrets" study. Who am I to God as a woman, a wife, and a mom? What about my husband? How does God want our family to look and function? Fascinating...

Of course, no Biblical study on marriage would be complete without digging into the meaning and application of the "S" word (as Kay calls it) :-) Do you have an ugly "S" word in mind? You know what I'm talking about...

SUBMIT

(I know...choke...gag...roll eyes here. Are you done? Okay, I'll go on.) ;-)

I wrote a long time ago about the realization that I needed to submit (or "arrange myself under") my dear husband. It was HARD. If you want to read that post, HERE it is.

Today though, God gave me a little slice of humble pie (you know the stuff...it's tastes a tad bitter, but leaves you feeling satisfied like nothing else) regarding submission....and my attitude on the subject.

It struck me in class today how God helps me to submit in such a unique way. Let me explain...

I used to feel (embarrassingly) proud that God seemed to speak to me before he'd speak to Luke, my husband. Then, when Luke would come to me with a plan or an idea that he believed came from God, I'd secretly think something along the lines of "yeah, I know, God told me that a looooong time ago" (with an irritatingly superior voice in my mind)...all the while smiling sweetly and saying "great idea, honey!"

Ugh. Sometimes I just can't STAND myself!!

Well, today the Lord gave me a new insight. Could it be that He tells me first so that I'm in the proper mindset to encourage and willingly submit to my husband? He's giving me a glimpse of what he has in store first so that I can, in turn, honor Him and my husband by being the wife that God wants me to be.

I wonder...will the Lord always be so kind to me, or will there come a time when He stops whispering to me first and just goes straight to my husband? After years of knowing with certainty that my husband is a man of God and is seeking his face, it should be simple, right?

Hmpf. I'm reminded right now of the Israelites being led through the desert with a pillar of smoke by day and a pillar of flame by night...and yet they turned away from God.

So, I'm humbled today. God doesn't speak to me before he speaks to my husband because I'm so special...he speaks to me first because he knows I'm weak and need the extra little nod from Him!

Leave it to God to let me feel loved and precious first... and then gently brought to my knees in humility!

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A Bit of Rest

Comfy clothes. Hot coffee with a small mound of chocolate chips to nibble on the side. The snow falls gently and silently outside my window. My sweet little ones with their bed head hair play a game on the computer in the other room. The crochet hook waits patiently for me. For now though, I'm content to just sip my coffee and appreciate the large flakes drifting from heaven. I just recently got out of bed, but am feeling like a nap already.


I'm thankful for rest today.
I'm thankful for a chat with my Dad - his words ring in my ears.
I'm thankful that I seem to have cried myself out of tears yesterday.
I'm thankful for my husband's safe return.
I'm thankful to not have anywhere to be, anything to do.

An unexpected visit from a friend yesterday...the unexplainable joy radiating from her in this time of sorrow makes me feel like a little bit of Jesus walked in the front door. I'm thankful for her.

Thankful for this Jesus...who I thought I knew. I'm seeing now that his glory...oh, his glory...it's unknowable this side of heaven. My God...he is mysterious and grand and so much bigger than my logic and reasoning and ability to contain it even when he does show me his grandness.

What sort of god could be fully understood and contained by little old me, after all? Not my God. Not even close!

I'm thankful that he's bigger than I can know.


Not without design does God write the music of our lives. Be it ours to learn the tune, and not be dismayed at the "rests." They are not to be slurred over, not to be omitted, not to destroy the melody, not to change the keynote. If we look up, God Himself will beat the time for us. With the eye on Him, we shall strike the next note full and clear.

(Streams in the Desert, L.B. Cowman)

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Oh Lord, I'm trying.


I'm beginning to wonder if this
is bigger than any of my effort.
Can I still praise you?
Can I still praise you when I don't feel it?
Do my praises still bless you if I
raise my hands out of sheer will and choice

and not from my heart?

Each day, I accept the benefits of this air I breathe.
I gladly enjoy this heart that beats without
any effort from me.

Each day, I enjoy the soft warm cheeks
of the babies you planted deep within my body,
my heart.

Each day, I am sheltered and loved and cherished
by this man.
This hard working and honest man.
This man with broad shoulders
kind eyes
gentle and strong hands.
This love. It seems impossible.
It's a gift from you, and I take it willingly.

My family is healthy
safe
happy
warm.

You are not a quiet observer.
You act.
You move.
You know each hair on my head,
the number of my breaths.

You speak.
You've touched my heart countless times.
Or am I deluded?

You save.
"At the cross, you beckon me.
Draw me gently to my knees."
Indeed.
I gratefully accept what you did on that cross.

It suits me.
It satisfies me.
It "works" for me.
Oh, this heart of mine...so selfish and ugly!

And yet, all I can seem to see and feel is that little girl.
You know her, Lord.
Still such a baby.
Sparking eyes.
Gurgling giggle.
Chubby fingers.

Gone.
With no warning or preparation.
Warning or preparation would have been cruel, I suppose.
Sleeping snug in her bed under a special blanket.
Family bustling about the house just past her
bedroom door.

And suddenly.
Gone.
Just
Gone.

I thought I knew.
I felt you near my heart.
I heard your voice.

And yet...

Who ARE you?

Bigger than a tidy explanation, yes.
Near those who are suffering.
Willing and able to bring good from bad.
Crying with those who sob for their little ones lost.
Your ways are not my ways.
You are beyond my understanding.
You are...simply I AM.
I am but a withering blade of grass in the summer sun.
It is not my place to understand.

So many cliche explanations and platitudes,
they just don't satisfy my soul.

I thought I knew you.

I felt safe in the arms of my Jesus.
I felt loved in the arms of my Jesus.
I felt protected.
Precious.

But now I can't keep my thoughts away from one question

Who are you?

Am I safe?
Am I loved?
Am I protected?
Am I precious?

Who are you?

I'm afraid
angry
confused.

How can I go on if I don't know who you are?
How can I praise a God who is mighty enough to
make the mountains,
yet will not protect a baby girl so loved?

Please, Lord.
Reveal yourself.
Show me the smallest glimpse of your love for me.

You know my heart even better than I do.
Whatever is missing, Lord.
You know what it is.
Whatever my heart or soul doesn't have of you
Please, Lord.
Give it to me.

Whatever my soul needs to heft these sad hands out of love,
fill me with it.

For now I'll raise my hands to the one I thought I knew.
But am I raising my hands to a lie?
Give me truth, oh God.

For now I'll raise my hands to the one who blesses.
Please ignore my fear.
Better yet, heal it.
I'm afraid, Lord.
I'm afraid that you, the one who blesses, will also take away.
I'm not strong enough.

For now I'll raise my hands with my mind.
A choice.
Move me, Lord.
Move in my soul so that my raised hands become
a symbol of the love and peace and joy overflowing in me.

For now, I'll raise my hands.

Please Lord, lift my heart.

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Christmas 2009 in Something Larger than a Nutshell

With all the craziness and turmoil of the past month, I never took the time to tell you about our Christmas! Despite some beyond-hard goodbyes, there was still much fun and joy to be found. Grandma would be happy to hear that, I think :-)

It all began with a hunt for the perfect tree. We were invited to a tree lot to choose a fresh tree and cut it down ourselves. It sounded like a fun adventure, so that's what we did on cold and blustery December Sunday afternoon.

Samantha thought it sounded like a fun adventure too, but she was concerned. I listened in on a sweet conversation she had with her Daddy that morning.

"We're going to the forest to choose a tree today, Sammy. Won't that be fun?!"

"A forest? But will there be animals in the forest? Will there be....LIONS in the forest?"

"No, sweetie. You don't have to worry about lions in the forest. There are just trees and maybe a squirrel or two."

"Well, okay. As long as there aren't any lions!"

We parked the car and ventured out to find our tree. There was much running around and debating the merits of each kids' favorite tree.




You will NEVER guess what we found in that little lot of trees...it was a real live LION. No kidding! All of Daddy's reassurances from that morning went right out the window when another family showed up to choose their tree, and on of their boys was dressed in little more than his favorite lion costume. I absolutely could not believe it! :-)


We finally settled on one of the most beautiful trees that I'd ever seen. It pained me to cut it down - I so wished we could have planted it in the yard instead!


Everyone had their chance to help cut it down. Clara's rear-end while she cuts:


Ben's:


Sammy's:


We finally got the enormous tree strapped to the top of our car, and we were on our way! You should have seen the stares and points we got as we drove around like this:


Before we could say "Jingle Bells", it was time for the annual round of school holiday programs. I was so proud of my brave little Clara when she signed up to be a "toy" dancing around on stage for her program (in the karate uniform):


See the prettiest girl in the whole room? That's my girl...


Sammy also had a Christmas program. It took every single ounce of courage she could muster up to walk up on stage and chew her fingernails bloody. My poor little nervous girl...NO red reindeer nose for her...NO singing for her...NO hat for her...NO dancing for her. In fact, she locked eyes with me once with such horror in her eyes, I was certain that she was going to dash off the stage and into my arms. Instead, she took encouragement in my smiling "thumbs up". I sang with her and clapped like a doofus....and before I knew it, she was actually singing too!


Whew - school was finally out.

We had a mysterious invitation from my sister and her hubby. We were just supposed to be ready to go at a certain time, and they'd come and get us.

Come and get us, they did!

We got a call around the time we were expecting them, "walk out your front door right NOW", was all she said. We walked outside to find a 15 passenger van blaring Christmas music, decked out with lights INSIDE the van, and two giant thermoses of hot chocolate ready for us. It was quite the scene! First, we stopped at McD's for $1 cheeseburgers and fries, and then we were off to see all the best holiday lights in the Boise area.

These guys...there is no effort too great...if it's fun, they make it happen. I feel so blessed to live close to them :-)


After several days of lighting and decorating the tree and house, we were finally ready for Christmas. The gifts were tucked away in the closet, only needing some paper and bows, and the stockings were hung by the chimney with care (poor Thomas, making a matching stocking for him is definitely a priority for me this year):


And the tree was the most beautiful tree we'd ever had. It didn't hurt that it was about 15 feet tall!


I had fun one evening with long shutter speeds and our tree lights:


And then, Christmas 2009 was defined in a whole new and painful way. My wonderful Grandma. Gone. How is it possible?

We decided to circle the wagons, and headed to Wisconsin for Christmas. I wanted to be with my parents, I wanted to help, I wanted to be near my Mom who was suddenly without her own mom for the first time in her life. I wanted to show up with a car filled with joy and gifts and chaos and love...I wanted the joyful shouts of my children's voices to help fill the void for Mom and Dad. And, I was missing Grandma. I wanted my Mommy and Daddy :-)

Before we left, we wrapped up the "big" gifts from us, and gave them to the kids (couldn't spare the room to get them to WI along with the 10 full suitcases we already had - no joke!). It was nice to have a little bit of Christmas under our spectacular tree after all.

Ben got a motorized-marble-maze-contraption- thingy that took him (and his Daddy who has an engineering degree) roughly 8 hours to assemble. It was right up his alley :-)


Clara got her very own sewing machine, fabric, and sewing box filled with notions. She and I promptly made a pillow and blanket for her favorite stuffed animal (and last weekend we made a new stuffed animal that is so cute - I'll try to remember to show you soon):


And Sammy- our little performer - she got a kids' keyboard that has a little recording device and microphone attached. She can record what she plays, and then she runs around the house listening to her "iPod" for the rest of the day :-)


Where's my picture of Thomas' gift? Thomas got a train set that he requests...no...requires we set up for him every single solitary day. All he has to do is point to the living room and say "whooo whooo", and we know what he's after :-)

We also got a gift for all the kids - a little air hockey table that sits right on the floor or the kitchen table. We had a great weekend of sewing and building and singing and playing!


And then, on Christmas Eve (I always SWORE I'd never be one of those people dashing around and traveling on Christmas Eve!!), we piled the kids, ourselves, and 10 giant suitcases onto an airplane and headed to the Chicago airport (I also SWORE to never fly United into Chicago again), then we rented a 12 passenger van and drove 3 hours to my folks' house.

It was, mercifully, a very nice and uneventful trip. Except for a bit of barfing on the plane. Really though - it was an easy trip. Well, except maybe for the little barfer :-)

And it was all SO worth it! There's just nothing like Christmas with Yaya and Papa...in their cozy warm house...with their gorgeous tree...and the amazing cooking.


After a round of gift opening from Santa in the morning, my mom's side of the family came over for food and fun (and a few tears...missing Grandma). I love getting together with these folks. This is so...where I'm from.






Oh Grandma...

Then, after a power nap on the couch for me and....I have no idea what for everyone else because I was drooling on the couch...we headed to a party with my Dad's side of the family.

Oh boy. An entire day filled with beautiful, fun, and funny people. AND unbelievable food? That's my family. God was awfully sweet putting me where he put me in this big old world.


There were lots and lots of people there, but one in particular stole my heart.

Does anything say "Merry Christmas" like a sweet little chubby-cheeked munchkin in a pretty dress? I think not.


I don't know though. She's terribly unloved.


And neglected.



No one really likes her much at all.


I almost had to take her home with me to spare her a long life of abuse and suffering. Can't you see? She's miserable without me hugging and kissing her...



After the business of Christmas Day, we settled in to play with the Christmas goodies and enjoy our time with Yaya and Papa. A couple of days after Christmas, my other sister and her family flew out so they could be there for Grandma's funeral. We hadn't celebrated Christmas with them (officially) yet, so we piled more...and more...and MORE gifts under the tree for an evening of extravagant abundance also known as "celebrating Christmas with Grandma and Grandpa". They spoil us all rotten :-)

But then on the day when we were to do our gift opening, my little nephew wasn't feeling well. He had a pretty bad cold with sore throat, and all of a sudden...a very painfully stiff neck. Did I just hear a collective gasp of terror from fellow moms out there? Yeah, we were scared.

His mom and dad whisked him to the ER immediately. From there, the good doctor at the ER transferred little Trevor by ambulance to Milwaukee Children's Hospital. He stayed there for 3 or 4 days on IV antibiotics and fluids. Thank goodness, he didn't have meningitis. He had an infection at the back of his throat that was causing his throat to swell up. It was getting to the point of threatening his airway, so they acted swiftly to get the kiddo on some heavy duty drugs. We were all thankful that he didn't need surgery.

While he was at the hospital, we prayed.

And we did our best to wrangle our two year old AWAY from this marvelous scene:


When Thomas discovered that the tree had seemingly magically been re-stocked with another load of gifts, we heard the most impressed "OOOOoooooOOOOooooOOOOOooo" come out of his little mouth :-)

Somewhere in there, Thomas snuggled up next to me to "read" his book while I read mine:


Papa tried to sneak a picture, but he was spied.



Also, somewhere in there, we had one of my hardest days ever. We said goodbye to my sweet Grandma. It just doesn't seem like the world should keep turning, you know? Death is just so...wrong.

A couple of days before her funeral, someone asked me if I was interested in saying anything at the service. I didn't know. I hadn't really planned on anything. I went to bed that night and asked Luke to pray for me about it. I prayed about it. I asked for Him to make it clear to me if I should speak, and to give me the words. I woke the next morning and simply HAD to get on the computer to start writing. He gave me the words alright!

So I had the honor of speaking at my Grandma's funeral. It felt good to do something for her. It felt good to celebrate her. It felt good to share what I knew of Grandma's faith. It felt good to share Grandma's hope...her God, with the people she loved most.

And it was positively terrifying! I was honored to do it, and thankful that I had the opportunity. But man, it was so hard! It was certainly the Lord himself holding me up, filling my trembling lungs with air, and giving me the words.

I'm so thankful for HOPE. I'm so thankful that the God I know and love conquered death itself. I have such a tremendous day to look forward to...even in death. I can't wait to see Grandma again!

{sigh....}



Finally, little Trevor was good as new. He came home and we got to open those marvelous packages!

So that's it. Our 2009 Christmas. After a New Year's Eve feast of melt-in-your-mouth steaks, homemade french fries, and the most gigantic lobster tails I've ever seen, we reluctantly piled ourselves back in the car for the long trip home. It was a mere 6 hours of travel, more oh-so-joyous experiences with missing the motion sickness bag on the airplane, and we were finally home again.

Does someone have a name for me? I want the name of the person who is responsible for the design of the airplane's motion sickness bags. Four square inches at the opening? Really? I might not know your name to write you a letter, but I know you're out there.

Dear Mr./Mrs. small bag designer: the water proof lining inside the bag was a good idea, but it does NO GOOD if the bag is so small that the 4 year old can't manage to actually aim the unpleasantness enough to actually get it IN the bag. Thank you. That's all I have to say about that.

PS. I hope that the stars align properly one day so that you are sitting next to one of my barfers on our next flight.

PPS. You owe my husband one pair of pants.


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How to Add Texture to a Photograph

Oh boy, have I been having fun playing around with textures lately! Just the right texture can add volumes to a photo's vocabulary. Suddenly, a nice shot of a pretty flower has a whole new mood... era... nostalgia.

This is a perfect example. I love this shot. I took this picture just last fall. I love how the soft fall light is filtering through the delicate pink petals, and the gentle swoop of the stem. Beautiful.


I also appreciate the simple beauty of this single blossom and the clean background. But....it seems to be lacking a little oomph to me. It just needs a little...something. I thought I'd give textures a try.

First things first, where to find great textures? Well, you can start by doing a search for "photoshop textures" I like to toss the word "free" in there too. Never hurts. You might be overwhelmed by your choices...and by the poor quality of some of what you'll find.

Let me save you some time and some hair-ripping-out sessions. Go visit my new best friend (who has absolutely no idea who I am, but hey, I'm not hurt)...Jerry Jones (aka SkeletalMess) at Shadow House Creations. BUT WAIT! Don't click over there quite yet. Once you click over to see all the beauty he has there, you won't be back here for a REALLY long time, and I want to show you how to use those incredible textures. I'll be quick so you can visit Jerry and download until your heart's content...or until your hard drive fills up...or until your computer starts smoking... whichever comes first :-)

When you find a texture (or 50) that you like, click on the link. It will bring you to Flickr, where this artist stores and displays his work. It also has a feature that enables you to download files. I typically click on the largest available size for download. Download the file, and drag it to wherever it is that you store your textures. I strongly recommend starting a file named "Textures" - that way you only have to go to one spot to open one up.

Okay. Now, open your original photo in PhotoShop.


You also need to open the texture you want to try. Click "File-Open" up there in the upper left. Navigate to where you store your textures, and open the one you're going to use. Once it's open, click back over to your original photo. Your screen will look something like this:


Now, click and drag the little picture of your texture and drop it on top of your photo. If you can't see your open files, you can click on a little arrow handle thingy...down there toward the bottom of your screen (I circled it).


The next step is to re-size the texture so that it completely covers your photo (or the section of your photo that you want to add texture too). Do this by simply grabbing the various handles and dragging them to where you want them. CAUTION! I sometimes inadvertently overshoot the original photo's edges a bit. The result is that I miss some of the interesting edge detail found in many of the textures. Try to align the two photos as precisely as possible. I'll bet there's a trick to doing this...please leave me a comment if you know one!


You now have a texture layer totally covering your picture. The next step is to adjust the opacity of the texture layer. Reduce the opacity until it is to your liking. In my opinion, a texture should compliment the original photo, not distract from it. If someone looks at the end results and says "nice texture", I haven't done a good job. But hey, you're the artist! Do it how you like it.


Now we come to one of my favorite features of PhotoShop. It appears that I've modified my photo. BUT I DIDN'T. All I did was cover my original photo with a layer. If I don't like the changes caused by that layer, I can simply remove the layer and I'm left with my original photo. This is good...because I don't like this texture with this photo. It's just not doing it for me. So...I delete the layer and try again with a different texture.

Another cool trick with layers is to add several different textures at the SAME time. They each have their own layer. They work together really well sometimes. And sometimes, it's nice to be able to turn the layers on and off again (click the little eye icon on the layer). This will toggle the layer between visible and invisible. It's a nice way to decide which texture you like best.

Okay, so I tried this next layer. Now we're getting somewhere. I love the "bathed in sunlight from a summer long ago" look. Soft and pretty. I'd give it a solid "B". I think I'm looking for something different though. Let's try another.


Alright, I found a texture that I like, but I'm not sure I like how washed out the flower seems. All the textures I tried had the same problem...they screamed "texture". I decided to play around with another trick...adding a new adjustment layer. Do this by clicking the circle that's half black and half white in the layers palette down in the lower right corner. I added a "levels" adjustment layer.

When I did this, a scary looking chart popped up. What to do when afraid? Go for it. Tweak and play and see what happens. Remember, you can always just delete the layer if you need to. In this case...I got just what I was looking for!

I grabbed the little triangle do-dads at the bottom of the chart, and I dragged them to the edges of the histogram. This balanced things out a bit, and really made the flower pop.


I tried this trick with a couple of different textures, and absolutely fell in love. This is now the new background on my computer's desktop...and there will soon be one hanging on the wall!


Here are my two favorite finished products. Which do you like best?



Thank you, thank you, THANK you...Shadowhouse Creations!

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